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Forever In My Thoughts  / Rose Linze (Mom)  Read >>
Forever In My Thoughts  / Rose Linze (Mom)

Ryan Linze is my son.  Five years ago his life ended and my life changed forever.  I think of you everyday. I would give anything to hear your voice again.  You left us so quickly there was no time for goodbyes.  No longer able to hold you laugh with you or just enjoy life with you.  Our hearts hold you close and remember those times we had together.  We will cherish them forever.  Sometimes I wish l could pause everything to give me the time and tranquility to reflect on your short life and all you accomplished in such a short time but life moves so quickly and pulls you along.  I know another world exists out there and your beautiful spirit (I know because you had an awesome personality) is still with us in some way.  It was such an honor and a privelege to be your mom even though our time was too short.  I have had many conversations with God about that.  I will always keep you in my prayers and thoughts.  I miss you like crazy and will always and forever love you.

Mom

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Hello My Love  / Dana Linze (Wife)  Read >>
Hello My Love  / Dana Linze (Wife)
Hello My Love.... It's been 5 years. 5 years since your sudden demise. 5 years since I told my babies that their daddy went to live someplace else.... 5 years since I thought my world had ended... And yet it was just beginning. I can tell you that I have manifested into a woman that all though I will never forget Juli 20th and Juli 21st I am a woman who has learned that it no longer needs to bring me to tears. 5 years later and we are all still living and growing. 5 years later and I am proud of the children I was blessed to have with you. I'm sorry I don't visit your grave very often..... I'll come clean... I don't like graves. I don't like talking to a piece of stone. Graves are just a "thing" in my world. I can't see you I can't hug you.... and a grave gives me no solace. It only reinforces the fact that you are buried underneath 6 feet of dirt. But it's your body that's buried. Not you. Why would I go to a grave when I know that your spirit is everywhere.... for all I know you are standing in front of me behind me or right beside me.... No one knows what the ever after brings until your there... and I chose not to warp our children nor myself by crying standing at a piece of man made stone. Your spirit is everywhere.... 5 years later and I'm still striving to be part of your family... I just took the boys to your family reunion and it meant a lot to me... I got to introduce them to their family the family that still cared enough to invite us (thank you Kathy!!). It's very important to me that the boys stay involved and have a good knowledge of who their daddy was and where they come from... VERY important. I'm not one to ever bash family ties however I won't take it lightly when my boys are disappointed neither.... 5 years later and I'm still holding on to a flame that your family promised to stay involved.... and I mean to keep them involved to the best of my capabilities... I won't sacrifice what we believed in and how they shall be raised but I will always and forever honor and respect their heritage. 5 years later and I'm rather proud. Your children are simply put amazing. Every single one of them have you inside of them.... I can pick out each and every characteristic of how each one is like you. Every single day they push me to my limits and yet I still love to embrace them at the end of a day. Being a parent is probably the most difficult thing I've ever done in my life... especially with out their father by my side. Yet I think I'm doing OK. I think someone blessed me with the graces of treading this water without you. 5 years later and I'm happy. I'm sure you know but there are good people in the world. There are men that will stand up and take responsibility where there is absence. I have met one of those men. Without ever having met you he knows you and he respects you. He has embraced me you and all of our children as his own life. He loves them as if they were his own.... some may scoff some may not agree but when I see him share an embrace with Zane Izeah or Zak I know for a fact that he is sincere.... and I will not get in the way of our boys having a father. We all know who their biological father is but I'm lucky enough to tell everyone I know that they have 2 fathers now... one who watches over them and one who takes care of them.... He wants to adopt them... I think I will let him :) I think you would be proud. 5 years later and I will still never forget where I was on this day 5 years ago... I think about this time I was probably out smoking (because I tend to do that a lot).... 5 years ago I was trying to wrap my head around the fact that you were dying and there was nothing absolutely nothing short of a miracle that could change the stars. I remember feeling numb feeling like this was happening to someone else and not me... 5 years later I still feel all of that... but it's different now... I took what I felt and I've learned from it grown from it. I've gone places seen things I wanted to see done things I've always wanted to do... I've tried to not to take life for granted. You taught me all that. You taught me the most important lesson anyone can ever learn in their life... that each day is a gift it's a true miracle. Respect what is given to you and never ever take it for granted. I would hope that from where ever you are you are smiling down on us... smiling down knowing that your children are in fantastic hands.... that they will live a life that you would be proud of.... I would also hope that you would be proud to know that I found love again... and that I was willing to embrace it and not hold onto a memory of you that is like holding on to the wind... it can't be done. 5 years ago today I understood what death meant.... And yet I'm still here living this life... I will always and forever love you there is no doubt in my mind about that. Yet I can't love a memory I can only love what you gave me.... I love every piece of what me and you made together and I love the fact that you were in my life for a short time. I love what you taught me and I love how much I've grown from it.... 5 years later and I'm still here... wrapped into these feelings and emotions yet so much more intelligent and wise about how short life itself can be... 5 years later and I just want you to know that I think of you every single day. I yearn to hear your voice again and watch you pick up your children. Yet 5 years later I get to watch another man pick up your children and love them as if he has your heart within himself.... 5 years later..... I still remember... I love you... and yet life moves on :) I love where we're at right now and all I can really say after 5 years is.... thank you. Love Dana Close
Smiles! / You Are Missed (Friend)  Read >>
Smiles! / You Are Missed (Friend)
I came upon this site and didn't know Ryan has passed.  I knew him from Jr high/high school.. He was always at least in 1 of my classes through our years..he was a great kid..we always talked to one another before class started or what not but he always said "hello how are you" everyday before class and i was quite shy and kinna looked at him as if he was strange eheheh but are conversations became a little longer as years went by.  We had different friends and classes  but even though we hardly saw each other in high school.. he would always tease me and say 'do you remember me?' and i would always nod and say 'yes Hi Ryan..how are you' and we would just kinna laugh and part ways... little things in life like that always hold a place in your heart and are always the best memories about a person that you would never forget..give those boys big hugs and kisses and always tell them that they had a wonderful father that was always himself and never let nothing get in his way of what he wanted out of life and it was always with a SMILE! Close
Still miss you  / Justin Hisle (Brother in law )  Read >>
Still miss you  / Justin Hisle (Brother in law )
The title says it all. I still miss you ryan and I don't know why but as of lately I have been thinking of you more and more. I can't help but wonder how things would be if you were still here to this day. You were a great inspiration to me and many others who were involved in your life. When I explain to people who you where I have to always start the story out with" now im not just saying these things because he was my brother in law" because ryan you were simply put amazing. I try to mold my fatherly skills based off of what you showed me in the little time you were a father. Take care ryan. Close
Four years ago  / Rose Linze (Mom)  Read >>
Four years ago  / Rose Linze (Mom)

To My Special Angel:

Bet you never thought you'd hear those words from me (ha ha). In your younger years "angel" isn't exactly what comes to mind but none the less you are my special angel now.

The last four years have gone by so fast and yet it seems like a million years ago since I heard your voice or gave you hugs and kisses.  We still feel that void in our lives at birthdays holidays and special occasions that no one will ever be able to fill.  Things just aren't the same without you.

I truly hope you are listening to what I say and know just how very much you are missed and thought of every day.

I will hold you in my heart forever.

All my love always and forever

Mom

 

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One choice, four years ago...  / Dana Linze (Wife)  Read >>
One choice, four years ago...  / Dana Linze (Wife)
"I am not what happened yesterday. I am what I am today. And I will be what I chose to be tomorrow." ************* Four years ago. Yep it was four years ago today that I was watching them try to put Ryan back together again. Which leads to tomorrow which will be four years ago tomorrow that for one day in my life I wasn't given this opportunity to chose what I wanted to be. There was no choice. The Universe said "So sorry... you're a widow now you get to be a single mom and raise 3 boys alone." Yet on this anniversary day I want to not be bitter at the Universe. I want to try to be thankful for how I have changed from this loss of choice... Thank you for teaching me that I would like to be remembered when it's my turn by my actions by how I care about others and by how I gave my time and love to my children. Thank you for giving me the strength to endure through a mental hell that is hell enough to make grown men cry and leads many others to depression and drug addiction. Thank you for teaching me how to be more in touch with my emotions and that is IS okay to cry. Thank you for teaching me how to appreciate every single breath I take. Thank you for shooting me like a sling shot into a world which I now know is never planned counted on nor promised. Because of that thank you for allowing me to now have the knowledge to try to enjoy every moment. Today I sat at a park and watched my kids play... no book no TV no Internet... just watching them play. Thank you for teaching me to respect and love those in my life who respect and love me and my family. Thank you for teaching me that it is not tolerable to have people in my life who DON'T love and respect me and my family. Thank you for humbling me and teaching me the hard way about our own mortality. Thank you for giving me the chance to prove to myself that I AM strong that I WILL succeed and that I CAN carry on. Thank you for opening my eyes to a whole new way of living by dreaming and making use of a more simple lifestyle. Thank you for teaching me to be okay with myself. Just myself. Sometimes in life all we have is ourselves and I am happy that I have found comfort in who I am. Thank you for showing me that we ALL make choices every single day about what we want to do how we choose to live and who we want to be. Thank you for teaching me to make these choices with my heart. *********** Ryan I miss you. I miss you a lot this time of year. No one will ever make that pain go away. Yet I think if you happen to be peaking in from time to time that I am managing okay so far. Your boys are... well... they're boys. They are rambunctious loud fun sweet caring and most of all they are just like you were as a child. They are so smart and so in love with life. They miss you all the time too.... but don't worry your name is on our lips each day. There is not one day that goes by that we don't speak your name. Some may have forgotten about what happened to you over time but I never will. They will never forget neither. As long as I'm here they will know what kind of person you were and how much it must have hurt you to have to say good bye. Thinking of you and still loving our memories Dana and the Boys Close
Thinking about you.  / Jason Linze (Brother)  Read >>
Thinking about you.  / Jason Linze (Brother)

You know I was just sitting here thinking about you Ryan. I don't know what made me think of this website but I just felt like I needed to visit and share my thoughts. I still think of you everyday even in the small things espically at work. I can just be doing something that would probaly seem normal to everyone but I will think of you and some of the things you would do or say and smile. I strive everyday to be like you I don't know if I would ever have told you that but it's true you make me want to be a better person and do the right thing. Gary and I have thought briefly of having kids and I find myself comparing me to you and If I could be half the dad you were to your kids. I am so very proud that I had the oppurtunity to be a part of your life even though it got cut short.

 

I will love you always I hope you are at peace.

 

Love your Bother

Jason

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3 Years and Still Missing You  / Rose Linze (Mom)  Read >>
3 Years and Still Missing You  / Rose Linze (Mom)

Anniversaries are usually a joyful time a reason to celebrate. But as we know anniversaries are also a reminder of how things have changed a reminder of what was lost and what could have been. A reminder of things that we have been forced to do without  - your place at the dining table family gatherings birthday parties baseball soccer football games your jokes your laughter your sense of humor no one to help Jason harrass his sisters although Jason is doing a pretty good job you would be proud of him. Your absence is felt everywhere everyday and is a stark reminder of what we lost.

But we didn't just lose a son a brother an uncle a father a husband. We lost a best friend someone to share with someone to talk to someone who was always there for us. Saying goodbye to you was the hardest thing I will ever do.

I pray for you everyday. The "Mom" in me wonders where you are what you're doing are you happy are you with those who love you are you safe are you in a good place are you surrounded by God's love. I hope you found peace and comfort in God's arms. I hope you will always be at our side helping us to find the peace and  comfort we are searching for helping us to get past the trauma of losing you and getting to a place where happier memories reside.

Memories are a beautiful thing and I have so many of them to chose from. I am so grateful for each and everyone of them and so grateful for being allowed to be your mom and being a part of your life. I wouldn't trade a second of it for anything.

Don't forget to remember me I will never forget you. I know that one day we will be together again and that day will be a joyful reunion.

You will always and forever be in my heart and in my thoughts.

I miss you like crazy and will love you for eternity.

Mom

 

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31st Birthday  / Rose Linze (Mom)  Read >>
31st Birthday  / Rose Linze (Mom)

Happy 31st Birthday Ryan.  I wish you were here to celebrate with us. Missing you doesn't get any easier as time goes by. I hope you enjoy your flowers and ballons and especially your Chicago Cub baseball guy. I thought he was so cute. Even dad (Cardinal fan) liked him.

I hope you are surrounded by those who love you today.

Have a fun and joyful birthday. Make a lot of noise so we know you are around.

You are in my thoughts everyday and will be forever in my heart.

All my love forever and ever,

Mom

 

 

 

 

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Anniversary and Birthday.....  / Dana Linze (Wife)  Read >>
Anniversary and Birthday.....  / Dana Linze (Wife)

You would have been 30 yesterday and we would have been married for 2 years two days ago.  I think and talk about you all the time still.....  I know it was hard for Zak lately, he's been sad at times but luckily we can still giggle and remember all the fun things you used to do with him and it always brings a smile through his tears :-) 

 

I took you 7 roses on tuesday and each one has a meaning for you ...

3 orange roses.....  One from Zakari, Izeah, and Zane for their daddy.

2 pink roses.....  I couldn't find purple ones like we had at our wedding so pink's substituted and it's one for each year we would have celebrated.

1 red rose....  From me because I will always love you.

1 white rose.....  From John, a sign of his love for your children, myself, and you.

I miss you and until I see you again, I will still love you.....

 

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Happy Birthday  / Rose Linze (Mom)  Read >>
Happy Birthday  / Rose Linze (Mom)

Happy 30th Birthday Ryan.

My wish for you for your birthday is this:

That you always find peace and comfort in the arms of God's love and that you find joy and happiness in the faces of your sons.

Don't forget to remember that you are deeply loved by so many and that you are soulfully missed.

Love you always and forever,

Mom

 

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Easter / Anonymous   Read >>
Easter / Anonymous
Today on Easter, a day of joy and triumph I was thinking of you and your family and the grace I know you still pass on to them from your place in Heaven. God bless. Close
One year  / Dana Linze (Wife)  Read >>
One year  / Dana Linze (Wife)
Hey baby-- it's been one year since I kissed you on the forhead and watched you take your final breath.  It's definintly been a year for reflection, sadness, joy, hardship, and healing.  

I remember sitting in that hospital room and praying with all my might that you would by some miracle of god wake up and look at me but it never happened.  I remember holding your hand for what felt like an eternity, waiting and watching you blood pressure slowly drop.  I remember telling Zakari how his daddy had died and was now in the sky looking down on him.  

I have cried more then I ever thought was possible in this last year.  And I have missed you so much that my heart literally hurt.  I have felt that emptiness in my stomach when I look at all your stuff and know that your not going to ever walk through the back door again.  

I also have watched your boys grow another year older.  I have hugged them and kissed them so much trying to make up for the lack of kisses from daddy.  I think you would be proud of how they are growing into opinionated little men.  I know you would have laughed at the things they do. I know they still remember you and love you just as much as you loved them.

I take pride in telling stories about you and I love to laugh at some of the things we did together.  You have taught me so much about life, and you are still teaching me about it from where you are.  You have forever changed my life.  It was a whole different life the day you died.  

I'm honored I was able to share our years together.  I loved holding your hand and saying nothing at all to you.  I loved how you would let me ramble on about nothing.  

I think I'm rambling on right now but I just wanted to share a few things with you because I love you now and will for as long as I'm breathing down here.  

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A LETTER TO MY SON  / ROSE LINZE (MOTHER)  Read >>
A LETTER TO MY SON  / ROSE LINZE (MOTHER)
MY SON DIED. THREE LITTLE WORDS AND SO DIFFICULT TO SAY. I SAY THEM OVER AND OVER AGAIN IN MY HEAD AND STILL I CAN'T GET PAST THOSE THREE LITTLE WORDS.  THEY SEEM SO UNNATURAL, INCONCEIVABLE, IMPOSSIBLE WORDS TO SAY WHEN SPEAKING OF ONE'S CHILD.
ONE YEAR AGO TRAGEDY TOUCHED OUR FAMILY THAT TOOK YOU AWAY AND CHANGED OUR LIVES FOREVER. ONE YEAR AND YET IT SEEMS LIKE ONLY YESTERDAY. I REMEMBER EVERYTHING SO CLEARLY AND AT THE SAME TIME IT SEEMS LIKE FOREVER SINCE I SAW YOUR SWEET SMILING FACE OR HEARD YOUR VOICE SAYING "WHATS UP MOM", NO MORE HUGS AND KISSES AND I LOVE YOU'S (I REALLY MISS THAT). YOU WERE A LOVING AND CARING SON AND BROTHER, A DEVOTED HUSBAND TO DANA AND AN ABSOLUTELY AMAZING DADDY. I LOVED WATCHING YOU WITH ZAKARI, IZEAH AND ZANE. YOUR LOVE, PATIENCE, TENDERNESS AND PLAYFULNESS FOR YOUR CHILDREN ALWAYS SHINED BRIGHTLY. YOU WERE A CARING AND COMPASSIONATE FRIEND ALWAYS WILLING TO HELP - NO WONDER SO MANY CALLED YOU FRIEND.
RYAN, IT HAS TRULY BEEN AN HONOR AND A PRIVILEGE TO BE YOUR MOTHER. I WANT YOU TO KNOW HOW VERY PROUD I AM OF YOU FOR THE PERSON YOU WERE AND THE LIFE THAT YOU LIVED. YOU TOUCHED SO MANY LIVES IN SO MANY WAYS. ALTHOUGH OUR TIME TOGETHER WAS TOO SHORT, THANK YOU FOR 28 YEARS OF SO MANY BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES. I WILL CHERISH THEM FOREVER. I BELIEVE IN MY HEART THAT YOUR BEAUTIFUL LOVING SPIRIT IS STILL WITH US, WATCHING OVER US AND WILL BE ALWAYS AT OUR SIDE. THE SAYING GOES "BELIEVE - THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON". I KNOW WE WILL NEVER KNOW THE "WHY" BUT I WILL TRY TO TRUST IN GOD (DIFFICULT TO DO AT TIMES) AND BELIEVE THAT HE HAD A REALLY GOOD REASON TO TAKE YOU FROM US.  YOU ARE MY FIRST THOUGHT IN THE MORNING AND MY LAST THOUGHT AT NIGHT. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, ALL MY SOUL, ALL MY BEING. YOU WILL BE FOREVER IN MY HEART AND IN MY THOUGHTS UNTIL GOD REUNITES US AGAIN. I KNOW YOU ARE ONLY A BREATH AWAY AND WHEN I TAKE MY FINAL BREATH I HOPE YOU WILL BE WAITING FOR ME.
LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER
MOM
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Daddy...... / Dana Linze (wife)  Read >>
Daddy...... / Dana Linze (wife)
I wasn't by a computer on father's day but I was thinking of you on sunday.  You were the best father to our three beautiful boys, and will always be the only one they know as their daddy.  I know they love you still and always will.  They made you a beautiful posterboard for your home now.  I hope you see it from where the stars are.  They put a lot of love in it, especially Zaky.  I called your dad and told him happy father's day as well.  More for you and it's not the same but you learned how to be a dad from him so he deserves it.  I love you and miss you.  They boys love you and miss you.  Just sharing my thoughts out loud with you..... Close
I miss you....  / Sarah Linze (Sister)  Read >>
I miss you....  / Sarah Linze (Sister)
Been thinking of you so much lately. I still can't believe you're not here with us today. I miss you so damn much. Been looking at your pictures since that's all we have now.  I will never understand why God took you away from us. You were just starting your new life with Dana and your boys and He just tore that right into pieces. It's not fair. I will say this....we all miss you like crazy and love you so much. Dana, I'm so glad that you came into our lives. You and Ryan were so happy together. I want to thank the both of you for giving me 3 beautiful and wonderful nephews. I love you all with all my heart!!!! Close
A lot in two days  / Dana Linze (Wife)  Read >>
A lot in two days  / Dana Linze (Wife)
Ryan,
Yesterday we would have been married for one year.  Today you would have turned another year older.  Happy Anniversary and Happy Birthday babe.  Amazing how many thoughts and feelings one person can have in the course of two days.  I visit your grave but it's not the same.  It's a rock in the dirt that says your name.  I know your body is under there too but I know your spirit is with us everyday.  I hope you can see my actions and hear my thoughts.  I hope you are watching over me and the boys.  I took you roses yesterday and will be bringing you balloons today.  I will never forget these two days.  They are one of many days I won't forget that we shared together. I do still and always will love you.  My life may be moving forward but you are always there with me in my thoughts and in my heart. Always. 

Everyone,
Thank you for your constant love and support.  I know you all care about me and the boys very much.  I will always remember all the things everyone does for us.  Thank you for remembering Ryan too in your daily discussions of him.  It brightens, not saddens, my day talking about him and remembering him.  It is so important for his boys to remember him through all of us.

With Love,
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Dana I just heard  / Mellisa Adler (friend of Gary )  Read >>
Dana I just heard  / Mellisa Adler (friend of Gary )
OMG I just found out about Ryan's death at my Mom's funeral April 7th, 2007. I decided to do a google search for his obit and this lovely tribute popped up. When I think of Ryan I think of his smile and ICP. When Gary and Jason bought their first house we were all painting and jamming out to The great Malinco. I can't believe he is gone, It's NOT fair. Just know that I think of you guys everytime I drive past the house.
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Izeah's eyes  / Dana Linze (Wife)  Read >>
Izeah's eyes  / Dana Linze (Wife)

I always wondered if there were angels and now I believe there is....

Izeah was your special little man. He was very close to daddy and that was wonderful. I remember coming home from work and seeing you dancing around his room, slowly with the lights off until Izeah was able to fall asleep. His head resting on your shoulder and his arms lazily draped around your neck. You were so kind and patient with him and you understood that Izeah just needed some tender daddy love.....

Izeah has been drawing these pictures lately of one big circle with little circles and triangles inside the big circle. His speech has improved greatly since you died and the other day, his preschool teacher asked him what was the picture of.... He pointed to the biggest little circle (inside the larger one) and said, "daddy". She asked where daddy was at and he pointed to the whole picture and said, "heaven". She asked what else was in the picture and he said,"angels". Now how could a two year old know that much about heaven and angels? Unless he's able to see through his wonderful child eyes something that we adults can't comprehend.....

I have faith that he sees you and still feels your love. I know you will watch over him and the other boys as they grow and I hope they continue to see you, even if it's only in their dreams.....

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Ryan / Dana Linze (Wife)  Read >>
Ryan / Dana Linze (Wife)
Ryan, every day is a new challenge since you went away so suddenly. It has taught me so many life lessons that I will never forget.....

Never again will I take for granted the people that I love in my life, or that they will always be here. You will forever be a reminder that I should openly and honestly express my love and care for the ones that are present in my life.

I have learned that people are precious and fragile human beings. Our lives could end in a heartbeat and I will do my best to live life to the fullest it has to offer.

I've learned not to question why this happened because there is no answer. There will be no answer until my time comes to pass. You were taken from us but left a track of footprints in my soul that will never go away.

I have learned that my emotions are perfectly normal. Somedays I'm angry, somedays sad, somedays lost. I embrace every emotion so I can walk through my grief and not around the grief.

I have learned that family is the most important thing to me. Your family or mine, they are all-important and are truly the ones I can count on. We are all dealing with your passing in different ways but if we give each other space and love, we will see this through and will always love you and each other.

I have learned to take more time and watch our children grow. Life gets so rushed at times but stopping to watch the wonder in our children's eyes is so refreshing and encouraging. They make me laugh when I'm angry. They make me see all the beauty life has to offer.

I've learned that grieving is something that will never end. There is no end to the feelings of loss and heartache. That when you left, half of me went with you and I can't fight it. I embrace it and live with it everyday.

I've learned though that life does move forward. I will keep moving with it as a new person. A new person with out you by my side, only I will be stronger and wise beyond my years because of you. I've learned though that if we talk about you everyday, you do move on with us but in a positive light. Your children will hear your name everyday as long as I'm around to tell them.

I've learned that your children will not forget you as long as we keep your name and the love you had for them alive. It breaks my heart knowing they only felt your love for a short time but they will grow up knowing that you loved them better then anyone ever will and I will never forget that. You were a beautiful man and will always remain that way in my eyes.

I love you,
Dana

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