Ryan, every day is a new challenge since you went away so suddenly. It has taught me so many life lessons that I will never forget.....
Never again will I take for granted the people that I love in my life, or that they will always be here. You will forever be a reminder that I should openly and honestly express my love and care for the ones that are present in my life.
I have learned that people are precious and fragile human beings. Our lives could end in a heartbeat and I will do my best to live life to the fullest it has to offer.
I've learned not to question why this happened because there is no answer. There will be no answer until my time comes to pass. You were taken from us but left a track of footprints in my soul that will never go away.
I have learned that my emotions are perfectly normal. Somedays I'm angry, somedays sad, somedays lost. I embrace every emotion so I can walk through my grief and not around the grief.
I have learned that family is the most important thing to me. Your family or mine, they are all-important and are truly the ones I can count on. We are all dealing with your passing in different ways but if we give each other space and love, we will see this through and will always love you and each other.
I have learned to take more time and watch our children grow. Life gets so rushed at times but stopping to watch the wonder in our children's eyes is so refreshing and encouraging. They make me laugh when I'm angry. They make me see all the beauty life has to offer.
I've learned that grieving is something that will never end. There is no end to the feelings of loss and heartache. That when you left, half of me went with you and I can't fight it. I embrace it and live with it everyday.
I've learned though that life does move forward. I will keep moving with it as a new person. A new person with out you by my side, only I will be stronger and wise beyond my years because of you. I've learned though that if we talk about you everyday, you do move on with us but in a positive light. Your children will hear your name everyday as long as I'm around to tell them.
I've learned that your children will not forget you as long as we keep your name and the love you had for them alive. It breaks my heart knowing they only felt your love for a short time but they will grow up knowing that you loved them better then anyone ever will and I will never forget that. You were a beautiful man and will always remain that way in my eyes.
I love you,